knew it was over before it began
realization went down my throat
bitter,pungent,stale.
Pain came un invited.
Ah,yes pain wanted to make his presence felt.
He taunted and teased
I'd wince,he'd sneer.
I knew what I had to do,
but lacked the courage.
Courage,unlike pain
refused to come.
Courage for all her pride
said she had a prior appointment.
Guilt spread through my being,each part affected.
I knew where I was wrong,I knew what I had to do
Lack of courage led the guilt and pain
it spread through me like a cancer.
One so great I knew not what to do.
And swallowed by my own creation.
I waited for emptiness to consume me whole.
